i have issues
oh gosh. studying architecture ain't as easy as i thought. i mean, the hardest part isn't on the studying , but rather, the designing part. our brains work in very different ways, and imagine if ideas clash? or maybe, your idea is similar to mine, and so someone might accused the other of copying their design. i'm in that sort of situation now.help.
it just so happen that our design clash with another work base's design, and that person kinda have the advantage of branding the design as his as he had a model of the design. i'm working on bottles, so i didn't make a model, and i borrowed his to show my work base lecturer the mechanism as it was similar with mine (now i realize it's the stupidest mistake i've made in my entire life), and then, (hey, i was just showing it to my lecturer and i have no intention of copying his ideas/design whatsoever), hell losses over as a course mate kinda of told me that i didn't informed that friend of mine that i was showing his design. i know i know, it was my mistake of not telling him in the first place, but my intention was purely to show the mechanism of it, and nothing else. i felt so down that day, it was as if my heart just jump out of my body and left me soul-less. i felt so guilty, i mean, i don't know why, but the guilt feeling just didn't left me till now.
i felt as if my other course mate's where thinking i was a idea stealer, and when i was working in the bengkel my other course mates were commenting on how similar our shelter looks like, wtf. hey, just because he's a tad bit better than me in studio doesn't mean that both of us won't think of the same ideas. give me a break already! i have tons of other things to fuss about already, like will my shelter stand by itself on judgement day, and is it portable, will it be too heavy? will the expenses for the materials be too expensive? will my shelter serve it's full purpose of sheltering? see what i mean? am i getting paranoid? i'm in a dilemma, seriously.
and the worst thing is i'm not sure if he's on speaking terms with me. and i can't even summon courage to walk over to his work station cos he might think i want to steal his idea or something. i'm afraid. i'm feel guilty, and i hate this feeling i have in my heart now. i hope things will get better, and i can't wait for the final presentation day to arrive so i can get over it and start a new project.
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